The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD
Episodes
183 episodes
Ep179 - I'm worthless and broken and need to hide who I am
In this episode we talk about the core of many traumas and pain in the past - feeling worthless, unlovable and unloved. A feeling despite being so prevalent is neither good nor normal and especially harmful during this dark time of the year and...
Ep178 - About anger and the so-called angry teenager
In this episode we talk about the anger that is a very consistent companion during our healing, the so called angry teenager you might have heard about and how to deal with the anger. You might have seen a quote like this: “He...
Ep177 - Weathering the (current) storm
Good day, this time we do something slighty different while I work myself back into the rhythm. Would love to hear your feedback. First, I want to thank you for your patience and apologize for the long delay. I really missed you.
Episode skip 3 - I'm (almost) back and the Holidays
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am slowly coming back. As expected the fight was successful and completely burned me out. But I am FINALLY FREE! Of Torture AND Trauma. This took WAY TOO long. And now more and more ...
Episode skip 2 - A little talk about what happened and the future 06. august
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am going shortly into what is going on and why I’m on hiatus. First on social media. I am going to restructure things and have plans and my silly brain decided that means I can’t pos...
Episode Skip - Sign of life and reminder for 4th of july
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I wanted to give this sign of life.Life is kind of on fire right now - thanks to the weather almost also literally - and I need to focus on that. Things should be back to normal soon - and I’m ...
Ep176 - Why do I feel so lonely? (hole inside / loneliness)
In this episode we will talk about being lonely/loneliness and the hole inside that causes all of it. There is a loneliness epidemic that keeps spreading and cause a lot of suffering. But why do we all feel so lonely? What is causing this...
Ep175 - Abuse Language (Psychological abuse)
In this episode we will talk about abuse language - the language that is designed to weaken the victim and used as a weapon by the abuser to maintain and expand their control over the victim. Abuse language is hard to explain if you don’t know ...
Ep174 - Flashbacks
In this episode we will talk about flashbacks - the most known symptom of PTSD - and wrongly assumed to be a central requirement for having any form of PTSD. Flashbacks are often referred to something along the lines of “having f...
Ep173 - How abusers keep control over us
In this episode we will talk about how abusers keep control over us - even long after we are out of that situation it can still apply. Especially if we were children at the time and we learned this to be “normal”. We need to understand to recog...
Ep172 - Are we bound to be victims or abusers? (Hunters, survivors, healers)
In this episode we will talk about fate - in particular about the fate of those marked by trauma. Are we bound to be victims or abusers? That is a question I am sure many of you have asked when only these 2 fates seem to be available. But there...
Ep171 - What does healthy relationship look like?
In this episode we will talk about what a healthy relationship looks like. The perfect relationship depends - of course - on your preferences, life and so much more. That is a science of and on itself. We just focus on a healthy relationship, t...
Ep170 - Love is not enough
In this episode we talk about how love is not enough.Though this episode is going to be a bit different again, because - for one - it is something that is so deeply painful and hard to accept - that it is very difficult to talk about it. A ...
Ep169 - How can I build up my support system? (Relationship)
In this episode we will talk about building up your support system - especially about solutions until new relationships are possible, which I forgot to address last time and offered just an answer, but not a solution. Your healing progress is a...
Ep168 - When am I ready for a new (healthy) relationship?
In this episode we will talk about being ready for a healthy relationship - a burning question for most. Which is understandable as a partner is invaluable in life - be it a romantic or platonic partner.We first talk about stable situation,...
Ep167 - How can I achieve the new me / my true self? (New Year Resolutions)
In this episode we will talk about achieving this new “me” that seems often so far away and some even believe is a myth. Or are you trying to return to your old true self? Both follow the same path that seems to be so hard if not impossible to ...
Ep166 - Why do I loose control over my emotions? (overwhelmed emotional instability)
In this episode we will talk about emotions once again, but this time about loosing control over them. That can take many forms and is sadly usually a common aspect in dealing with PTSD and also during the healing progress.We first talk abo...
Ep165 - Why can mental health be a problem for men? (Suicide)
In this episode we will talk about mens mental health.Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript: https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode165[1]
Ep164 - Do I have enough time left? Is my life over? (Midlife crisis sunk cost fallacy)
In this episode we will talk about time and life with the questions “Do I have enough time left” and “Is my life over” - which is something I went through myself and I hear so often. It’s common to get entrapped by it - and finding the answer i...
Ep163 - Why do I still feel like a child and not like an adult? (Neglect Parentification)
In this episode we will talk about feeling like a child and not like an adult - often accompanied by feeling overwhelmed and lost. One of the more general issues, but also an absolute key element on recovering from trauma - especially if it hap...
Ep162 - Can my mind make my body sick? (Psychosomatic)
In this episode we will talk about how the mind can affect the body - and the other way around. If you keep getting sick or have this weird illness that just won’t go away, then that might be related to PTSD. I can confirm the same - the issues...
Rerecord:Ep161 - Trauma makes you (not) stronger (Post Traumatic Growth PTG)
In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to ta...
Ep161 - Trauma makes you (not) stronger? (Post Traumatic Growth PTG)
In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to ta...
Ep160 - Were your parents 'good parents'? (childhood abuse neglect)
In this episode we will talk about parents and if they were “good parents” - while there are many ways people define if someone is a good parents or not, we will - of course - focus on the trauma perspective, because it is sadly the root of man...
Ep159 - Why do I feel so scared or anxious? (Anxiety Overwhelmed Fear)
In this episode we will talk about being scared or anxious - sometimes both at the same time. Usually it’s a cry for help by your overwhelmed brain. The feeling of fear is a very familiar feeling for those dealing with PTSD and can greatly impa...